Have you ever had a feeling, just sort of like a deja-vu, and then that thing really to happen? Or a feeling of a need to do something? Like an urge, an emergency, something without the fate of the world will never be the same. That is tomorrow, I'll see what will happen. I'll try. I die, so what?, I'll go see Father, I don't die, so what again, I'll stay on this side of the world and try to keep my morals UP, and survive. With or without the one that holds the key to my heart.
Sadly. Extremely sadly. I have fallen for a guy that has no idea what world he lives in, I couldn't be asking for him to know of he would, in the future - most probably, like to "get together sometime".
My tears won't dry too easy, because, I don't know, I have no idea, why, every time I say I'm getting over and I'm Not gonna keep wanting him back, I go even deeper inside a wish for us to be together.
Ugh, I hate myself when I'm like this. Deppresive, ready to burst into tears and feeling tired from keeping my hopes up.
Why do I keep doing this?
In the middle of the night, while her body lies in lack of life, her one last breath is dedicated...
"To you, Keyholder of my heart and grief. To You, my Lord and Shepperd. " No one knows what made her do this, what determined her to jump into desolation and a cry for help that was never responsed. No one will ever know her last thought and and her last breath were torn to the one that broke her heart and dreams into pieces.
No one ever will know.
